Yay another day to rant again, this subject that im going to rant about has been bugging me for weeks been trying to rashionalize this as best as possable yet i dont think it can be done. A few weeks ago i got into a fight with my friend about how he says one thing and then goes and changes his plans not thinking i would waste my time, when i could have really used that time for something else.
In his mind he thought that since given the curimstance that was happening around his place at the time to get another friend to take him to the airport yet knowing i had to get up early and work late that night. All he told me was to wait at home never said anything about not picking him up. Yet i didnt want to ruin his vaction i saved my rant for when he got back. Just as before he tired to blame me for as he put it “im jumping down this neck when i have to basis for it and it wasnt a big deal & not needed the extra stress as i did before”. Yes we has a simiar fight before and yea he made me feel bad this time around i wasnt going to have that happen again when it really wasnt my fault but his.
I have done nothing but been there for him for the past 3 yrs with his money issues, personal problems, family etc. He told me long ago that he wanted a fried that had a grounded way of thinking and point out his problems but as like before he gets upset that i tell him and say im the one thats fawled just becasue he has a degree of being a shirnk and has his own quirky way of thinking on stuff he never thinks hes wrong nor likes to be corrected. So i finally gotten to my limit with him and his way of life of being bi now turned gay plus that when he needs something he will buzz me but after a few weeks he would up and leave with out saying a word for months at a time. And with my busy scheduel at school, work, family and money issues, I cant worry about him anymore.
My delma is am i wrong for wanting to call it quits with him when really hes the one who has the issues and seems to have other pals taking care of him when they cant im the last resort. Ive known him for so long a i feel that if i leave this time for good he will fall apart worse then the last time. Yet at the same time if you cant teach and old dog new tricks so its best to get rid of the issue before it consumes you.
I’ve always put alot into my friendship my heart and soul becasue i dont make alot of friends and i feel its kinda my calling to help those in need, yet at the same time he help me get out of my shell and some of my issues and i feel no matter what he does i still should be there for him. Even thought i get the feeling hes basicly done with me and stringing me a long because like always he going to fall in the eyes of those so call friends of his and leave him which in return he comes back to me saying hes alone again.
Ive talked with alot of friends and my bff and they all came to the same conslusion that i need to leave him hes ungreatful and like before he will realize what he done to me and this time im really gone. I know it hurt me for the frist week to think about it but at the same time i need to have a break and foucs on what important in my life and he will hinder me if i say with him. So im just waiting for after mid terms to break it to him and get my money that he owes me and leave. I know how it all will go down and this time i will not feel bad for what im going to do with him, he needs to wake up i told him being an adult will either make you or break you, so get with the program or get lost.
I think i have ranted enought lol sorry like i said i tent to ramble a bit to much, anyway for the rest who read this and dont like what i say here is my answer for ya, “if ya dont like me then bite me” lol laters peps.
